Well, perhaps it wasn't the best idea which has ever come to my mind, but at least this way of expressing my thoughts and feelings seems to be more or less relevant to me. It's true that when we're faced with changes in our life we unwittingly want to try these changes on our habits. Sometimes, we might go to extremes, have our hair died pink, make tattoos or even take up something which used to be unallowable for us before. Every change brings something to our personality and our future decisions. We never know what will happen after we try this change on, but we always believe it's to the good. Now talking about me...My life is changing drastically. Looking back at the past, I see me or better say two different me. There were no greater changes in my life than within 3 previous years. Maybe it's vacuously but I wish I had a chance to meet 16-year-old me, talk to her and persuade not to be that blind as I used to. Honestly, I regret many things I've done or haven't done since. Of corse in comparison with global human mistakes mine worth nothing, but well if I continue asking myself about what could I do or do not then it really bothers me. It's awfully stupid even to give a thought about the past - you already know ahead that you nor anyone else has power to rewrite the scenery of your past decisions. 3 years ago, I couldn't yea imagine how my life will look like today. No, I don't complain about how miserable the existence is, no way. Backwards, I appreciate every single morning, every oppurtunity for development, my parents' angelic smiles, my friends' support. But, perhaps I am taken aback with the quick-paced life and the huge difference in me and my personality within 3 years. Looking at the photos I took, reading my diary notes, listening to the tracks I used to listen I see no me, but someone better (yes, I guess better) than me now. I may admit, I feel jealous with her...Anyway, it's a long topic full of philosophical thoughts and objections. Maybe, this particular chapter of my life is about becoming stronger and more resistant to complications. Maybe, life pushes me to the new bright road, but I go on reminiscing my past. It's obvious that noting new will come, unless we hold on to the past...
Here are some wise quotes which inspire me:
Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.
Buddha
You build on failure. You use it as a stepping stone. Close the door on the past. You don't try to forget the mistakes, but you don't dwell on it. You don't let it have any of your energy, or any of your time, or any of your space.
Johnny Cash
Do not brood over your past mistakes and failures as this will only fill your mind with grief, regret and depression. Do not repeat them in the future.
Swami Sivananda
P.S. the idea of keeping a blog might end up with this only post or lay the foundation towards something...
