Monday 23 January 2017

Feeling restlessly?

Every person while feeling down has its own methods of boosting spirit. Someone finds a friend to speak his/her thoughts and emotional stress out, someone needs some time to stay alone and for sure there are people who might find solution in a calm or heavy music. Well, for me...I find peace in blogging. It's like having a friend, who will never interrupt you but only listen. Pity enough but I turn to my "virtual friend" only when being in pain (mostly psychological pain). Maybe this is the result of not having the real good listener or not being able to hear the advice given. I am lost...

My life is changing dramatically. Well, everyone's does. I stay focused, or I try to stay focused on the positive aspects, the things which make me smile or which for some time could help me to forget the things or people who literally disturb me. How to forget? How not to recall bittersweet memories...the past, which actually has nothing to do with the future...

It's normal to feel. Indeed, it's the sign of life...the proof you're alive, you're in. As my teacher once said "There is no worse feeling than indifference. Even anger, anxiety, fear, envy – these are all feelings which make us think or in some cases struggle. Indifference is the lack or absence of interest or concern...

Indifference is the strongest force in the universe. It makes everything it touches meaningless. Love and hate don't stand a chance against it.

                                                                                                             Joan D. Vinge

Because of indifference one dies before one actually dies

The opposite of love is not hate, but indifference
                                                                                                     
                                                                                                                Elie Wiesel


In some moments I am dreaming about being indifferent towards some events, places or people...But I am still feeling something...And it's true that I am blaming myself for the things I have or have't done..My behavior, attitude, self-control. I wish I tackled the problems with the same easiness I complete tasks in math...

Maybe I make simply things seem complicated, maybe I leave needed words unsaid...For the moment I cannot find the root of irritation and the only thing I can do is to rely on time.